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FEBRUARY 23, 2006!!!! update.
(x) smoked a cigarette [SMOKE WAY TO MUCH]
( )smoked a cigar
(x)smoked anything else [ WEED]
(x) kissed a member of the same sex [ONLY 2, VANESSA AND MY BESTFRIEND]
(x) crashed a friend's car [YES]
( ) stolen a car
(x) been in love [LUST ]
(x) been dumped [/|\LUST INCIDENT]
(x) shoplifted [FROM A BOY, I HAVE A HABIT FOR STEALLINGBOYS CHAPSTICKS]
( ) been fired [I'M NOT ALLOWED TO WORK YET]
(x) been in a fist fight [2]
(x) snuck out of my parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back [YEA, HAPPENING RIGHT NOW.]
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger [FIRST GUY I MADEOUT WITH, MICHEAL B. FRESHMAN YEAR]
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend [ITS OKAY TO LIE TO FRIENDS, ASLONG ASTHEIR NOT MY REALY GOODFRIENDS.]
(x) had a crush on a teacher [THIS CUTE GUY WLAKING AROUND CAMPAS, HES NEW TO WARREN AND YOUNG]
(x) skipped school
( ) seen someone die
(x) had a crush on one of your MYSPACE friends [YES, THEY LIVE CLOSE, FRIENDS OF FRIENDS THAT I END UP MEEING]
( ) been to Canada
(x ) been to Mexico [I REALLY WANT TO GO AGAIN, I MISSIT AS A CHILD]
(x) been on a plane [I DONT LIKE THE FOOD, I TAKE MY OWN]
(x) purposely set a part of yourself on fire
( ) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
(x) met someone BECAUSE of myspace [YEA AT KIMS PARTY, WHERE I GOT SUPER DRUNK. MEET ALOT OF PEOPLE THAT NIGHT]
(x) 2 stepped at a show
(x) got drunk {plenty of times]
( ) been in an abusive relationship
( ) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by.[ BY MYSELF]
( ) made a snow angel (i've never seen snow.)
( ) had a tea party [ I DONT REALLY LIKE TEA, I HAVEN'T TASTED ONE I LIKE]
(x) flown a kite [WHEN I WAS LITTLE, WITH MY DAD]
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
( ) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game [
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake id
(x) watched the sun set
(x) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
(x) been tickled [ LIKE COUPLE TIMES, IM NOT REALLY TICKLISH]
(x) been robbed
( ) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
(x) pet a reindeer/goat..
(x) won a contest
(x) ran a red light
( ) been suspended from school
(x) had detention
(xxxxx) been in a car accident
(x) had/have braces
( ) felt like an outcast
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
( ) danced in the moonlight
(x) hated the way you look occasionally.
(x) witnessed a crime [my own]
( ) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes(!!haha)
(x) squished barefoot through the mud...
(x) been lost
( ) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep [lots of times]
(x) played cops and robbers
( ) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sung karaoke..[carson]
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(xxxxxx) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(X ) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
( ) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) kissed in the rain :[ once
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe [not yet]
( ) watched the sun set with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire
( ) crashed a party
( ) Have Traveled more than 5 days with a car full of People [some day road trip!!!]
(x) gone rollerskating/blading
(x) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey
(x) worn pearls
(x) jumped off a bridge
(x) screamed penis in public [PENIS!!!!!!!!!]
( ) ate dog/cat food
( ) told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) sang in the shower (all of the time :])
(x) took a shower with the opposite sex [ yesss, once!]
(x) have a little black dress
(x) did stuff in a car (uh yes.)
(x) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something
( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
(x) sat on a roof top (hotel del, etc)( including that i got high there haha )
( ) had sex at a church
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( tryed) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours!!! [miss it]
(x) stayed up all night
( ) didn't take a shower for a week [yea my hair]
(x) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had a tree house
( x) are scared to watch scary movies alone !!!!!! HELL YEA
(x) believe in ghosts [yes i do]
(had) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
(x ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say [downey dork day]
(x ) gone streaking [ tagging, w/ streaks]
(x) played ding-dong-ditch
( ) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
( ) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
( ) caught a fish
( ) made a porno [ when should i start]
( ) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
( ) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you )
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name, [because i have mad memory]
(x) slept naked [only with someone]
(x) french braided someones hair
( ) gone skinny dippin in a pool [ will soon]
( ) been kicked out of your house [never]
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AUGUST 17, @....1:43am
(x) smoked a cigarette ( :[ 5 today )
( )smoked a cigar
(x)smoked anything else
(x) kissed a member of the same sex (on the cheek)
(x) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
( ) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight
(x) snuck out of my parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen someone die
( ) had a crush on one of your MYSPACE friends
( ) been to Canada
(x ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
( ) thrown up in a bar
(x) purposely set a part of yourself on fire
( ) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
(x) met someone BECAUSE of myspace
(x) been moshing at a concert
(x) got drunk
( ) been in an abusive relationship
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by.
( ) made a snow angel (i've never seen snow.)
( ) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
( ) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake id
(x) watched the sun set
(x) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
(x) been tickled
(x)been robbed
( ) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
(x) pet a reindeer/goat..
(x) won a contest
( ) ran a red light
( ) been suspended from school
(x) had detention
(xxxxx) been in a car accident
(x) had/have braces
( ) felt like an outcast
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
( ) danced in the moonlight
(x) hated the way you look occasionally.
( )witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes(!!haha)
(x) squished barefoot through the mud...
(x) been lost
( ) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sung karaoke..
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(xxxxxx) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
( ) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
( ) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) kissed in the rain :[
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
( ) watched the sun set with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire
( ) crashed a party
( ) Have Traveled more than 5 days with a car full of People
(x) gone rollerskating/blading
(x) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey
(x) worn pearls
(x) jumped off a bridge
(x) screamed penis in public
( ) ate dog/cat food
( ) told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) sang in the shower (all of the time :])
(x) have a little black dress
(x) did stuff in a car (uh yes, tonight.)
DOESN"T SAY WHAT KIND OF STUFF
(x) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something
( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
(x) sat on a roof top (hotel del, etc)( including that i got high there haha )
( ) had sex at a church
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( tryed) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours!!! miss it
(x) stayed up all night
( ) didn't take a shower for a week
( ) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had a tree house
( x) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(x) believe in ghosts
(had) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
( )gone streaking
(x) played ding-dong-ditch
( ) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
( ) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
( ) caught a fish
( ) made a porno
( ) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
( ) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you )
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name, because i have mad memory
(x) slept naked.
(x) french braided someones hair
( ) gone skinny dippin in a pool
( ) been kicked out of your house
theend. :]
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[08 Jun 2005|12:07am] |
THE ALLEN.
FINALLY MET DEE-RAY
SAW GEO AND JAVI AND CISCO
BROUGHT UP OLD MEMORIES GOODTIMES
[[JUDGEMENT]]
ACROSS FIVE APRILS
HAD TO CHANGE MY SHOES
DANCED IT UP FOR A BIT SUNG
ALONG TO ALL SONGS AND RAN
TOWARDS THE MICROPHONE.
read my shiiit bitch!@
hahahha
I DONT TRUST ANYBODY.
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no school again i only went for a while in between classes i
had to return a book it was wierd yesturday since i was sleeping
all day my house phone rang and i swear i thought i was sleeping
in class like usuall because i herd my teacher on the other end of
the reciever i was like oh shit yea i'll take you your book. so that was ther purpose of today i hung out at lunch then left right after left to friends house whole mess of people ditched today. then i ended up going back for 6th period.
whoa now i have nowhere to go after school no where to meet up and no deliciois NEW food to try, which pretty much sucks so i head home and sleep, dont even stay with the usuals like before.
Rudy helps me get along with my day, when i need someone to talk to just to get my
mind off things he calls at the perfect time and we fucking talk random shit and
listen to music and all sorts of things hes my comforting hand and i am his...
Basically i was in the bath for 2 hours exactly in some hot steaming water felt good
i tried to imagine myself in a forest, tropical island something. i dug my face under the water
and can just hear the water pounding down onto the water while closing my eyes. it felt like i was
in a forest and it was raining, it sounded soo peaceful i wish i could get away and go to a place
like this,
water was rising, rising fast i didn't care my face was begining to get buried in tons of water until i can no longer control it i just let it rise and rise, i held my breath, and tried the unthinkable
right as soon as i started thinking about all misery and sadness i held my breath held myself under the water. i can still hear the hard pounding water i couldn't stand it i began swallowing water and i was coifing very uncontrollably. all i kept thinking was, I'm going to put myself to sleep now for a bit longer than usual, all i had to say about this, call the time eternity.
i'm scared I feel certain that I'm going mad again. I feel we can't go thru another of those terrible times. And I shan't recover this time. i need help.
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Today there was no school
didn't feel like going.
you ever have those days where you
jus thave to be away from everyone!!! yes
its one of those days for me.
on my walk to his house i was
realizing it, this is it, im going to do it
Went to carlos house and i socked
him in on the mouth and his back
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how it started, i pick u
i left him a red mark and his mouth
bled a bit. can't you tell i was mad ?
fed up i might add, pluss he didn't let me leave
just everything went terrible i went there
with, "i hope my plan works"
bad part was I HAD NO PLAN
i ended up spending the time with him at random times
kept running into him
then i left rudys went home and got the car
went driving around got things out of my mind
ended up going back to rudy saw him leaving
and followed him he didn't even know...
saw some cute stuff at the libray
went back home rudy picked me up went to carwash
didn't even know i was following him
didn't say a word
i sat in my room all day
i discussed this with joe that theres no hope for me ahha
Oliver called and stoped me from... doing some stuff
even tho he didn't know it hes a really nice guy
fun and entertaining, [melissas friend]
just because i slept all day when i got home doesn't mean
i'm sad and miserable lol its funny how my mom was all worried
i told her i ditched she didn't care just said i should have told her
so i wouldn't get caught by the school.
ALRIGHT LETS MOVE.
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DRINKING IS VERY BAD.
BECAUSE I'VE BEEN STRAIGHT EDGE FOR
OVER A MONTH, HAD A BOYFRIEND FOR OVER A MONTH
THEN FRIDAY CAME.
OLIVERS WITH NICOLLET AFTER THE PARTY
THEN HAD THE TWINS [[ROBERT AND RICKY]]
COME GET ME, HEY MISTER, WE GOT SOME BOOZE.
CHILLED OUTSIDE BOBS HOUSE
HIS FUCKING DRUNK ASS, TOO.
AHH SISTER PICKED ME UP WITH JASON
HE GAVE ME that same night, knowing i just saw him.
the only thing i herd coming from my phone receiver was,
"BABY THIS, BABY THAT,
BABY LETS GET BACK TOGETHER" OVER AND OVER again
I DONT NEED TO HEAR IT. i honestly can't hear it.
im doing so good without him but yet he always comes
back crawling to me....
THEN ALONG COMES SATURDAY
PARTTY WHOOAA 2ND DAY
AMILS PARTY I'M STILL SOBER SO I'M LEFT DRIVING
ONCE AGAIN I END UP AT ROOKERS HOUSEE
HELL YEA FUCKING "RK" BITCH!
yea im at rudys house...hes there.
I'M ALMOST PASSED OUT ON THE FUCKING COUCH
i could see him stumbling his way throught the dark
i can make out his walk as hes coming closer and closer
THEN HE COMES AND THRoWs HIMSELF ON ME,literally
. for a while hes jusy laying on top of my sorta
on my legs as im trying to speak but nothings coming out
im too drunk.
NOT GONAA HAPPEN ESPECIALLY WHEN HE DRAGS ME
TO THE rudys PARENTS ROOM LOCKS
THE DOOR AND KEEPS TRYING
TO TAKE OFF MY PANTS AFTER I'M
TELLING HIM NOT TO..
FUCK YOU FUCK HIM DUMB ASS I'LL CLIP HIM
AGAIN IF I HAVE TO
YEA YOU DONT START CRYING AFTER ATEMPTING
THIS, why he started crying i dont know
but i won, i got myself up and luckly my
mom had just gotten there to pick me up.
SO I DONT KNOW WHAT WAS UP WITH HIM
FUCK ASSHOLE LIKE HIM, i need to get away from him.
--------may 29,2005
UH YEA PARTY COMPTEN!? AHAHA SUNDAY NIGHT DRUNK ASS FUCK
WELL THE FRIENDS ESPICIALLY MIS MARINA
DRINKING HOT SAUSE
LIKE SHE WAS DOWNING SOME SIMRENOFF BLACK CHERRY FLAVOUR
STUPID FAT BITCHES TRYING TO STEP UP TO ME FUCK ANNOYING
AND YEA NO HANGOVER OF COURSE BECAUSE
I DONT GET DRUNK OFF 6
SMIRENOFF....PLUSS MY MOM JUST TOLD ME
I SMELLED LIKE BEER AND DOESN'T CARE IF I DRINK.
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My name is Erika, and I hope you're well, cause i want to kill myself,
trying to make you happy, make you feel like you're beautiful.
I hope you don't regret what you threw away.
I'll be thinking of you when your holding somebody else hand.
You let go of my hand, let me fall to an empty fate.
If I was so special to you, why did you leave me to rot with my love that was true?
And I know that everything else will be false
Cause your love belongs in my heart.
I hope you forget every memory of me.
Cause I'll be fighting for you every moment of every day.
And it will remind you of the one who took care of you
Each night, calmed your fears,
hugged you tight, dried your tears,
kissed you right, held you near,
fell in love, loved you dear.....
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